Were there ever more truly dreadful days than these? Except that there is perhaps a pale light, an experience of the past, which deters & postpones despair. Yet at times, how well pleased could I be to have the \u201cjudgement\u201d now \u2015\u2015 fearing I may meet it less well if later. \u2015<\/p>\n
Dull, thick, gray day. \u2015 Letters from T.G. Baring<\/a>, & Ann<\/a>. \u2015 Called at Crakes<\/a> \u2015 & went to 2 or 3 houses \u2015 for lodgings. Then to [C. de H.s], for some time. To other houses \u2015 all useless. Gambier\u00a0 Parry<\/a>\u2019s: \u2015 cum multis aliis.1<\/a><\/sup> \u2015 A. Seymour<\/a>, B. Redclyffe<\/a>. ( At 8\u00bd H. Farquhar<\/a> called \u2015 asking me to dine.) \u2015 Next to the \u201cHogarth\u2019s\u201d: \u2015 & then in a cart, to 3 Red Lion Square. R. Martineau<\/a> out. Rain. Bus to Mr. Bell<\/a>\u2019s. \u2015 He, & James Dalton<\/a>: lunch: pleasant. \u2015 Bus to B. Martineau \u2015\u2015 not as pleasant. Walked thence, enquiring at many houses, \u2015 but finding none to visit, \u2015 more & more rain, & so & so to [U.I.M.] whence I went to Luards\u2019, & Hallidays: & other places \u2015 all in pouring rain.<\/p>\n An hour of disgust at home, when I concluded it would be better to give up all idea of other houses \u2015 & simply to work a very little here, & then go into the country: \u2015 where? \u2015 At 7\u00be to Henry Farquhar\u2019s \u2015:\u2015 Large, & very good & wealthy dinner. Hon. Mrs. Woodhouse<\/a> (who told me of her son\u2019s being here:) \u2015 Mrs. Hanbury<\/a> \u2015 formerly Webb \u2015\u2015 &c. &c.<\/p>\n [Always rather a bore, not much.]<\/p>\n Lady Farquhar then.<\/p>\n But what [mean] stuff is this to be called life!!!<\/p>\n XX17<\/p>\n [Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]<\/span><\/p>\n